what sucks?

I feel horrible, complaining so much about my school (not merely to others but to myself too).

Complaining seems to be too severe; or am I just stating facts or simply trying to be smart.

I am not (but wish to be) the smartest people. I try hard to be.

I am just fortunate to be good (passionate) at what I do.

yesterday n today - People at school ask me "how's your work?"

I answered "I haven't done much"

"ya right" they replied (or similar)....

but really I didn't, not since my last submission.

It suddenly feels like I am restricted to what I am and what I can say in front of these people... I have to be very conscious of my actions and the words that are pouring out of my mouth.... have to conceal my ego, easy on theirs, generous with my givings,show compassion and be nice!

Work is all I have (others as well but less apparent) to talk about and to connect with my school friends.

However, I might be just 'over-analytical', fikir terlalu banyak.

I have to constantly remind myself not to be too carried away with what I have achieved but press on to what I can achieve.

.....Since I haven't been doing much (....there I go again),at least nothing productive, nothing progressive for the past week.... and yet to get a job :(

I have to nike my work.

Just do it ;)

I haven't had much of any social life (actually none).... cyber life is a good substitute though (oh no... turning into cyber geek?) I miss all my Singapore and Malaysia friends...